F.i.in.e Moods

- follow-up to ''The Awakening'' ... the letter that followed...

How could she ever heal

from the violence he did

and how on earth would she

with the way he suggested

He sent her a letter a few

months after his attack

he said he'd use a knife and

slice himself each day 'til

she's healed from all the

pain he caused her that night

He said her caring love freaked

him out and he doesn't know

He called it a beast inside him

one he didn't know lurked

She didn't quite know what to

make of his words, still doesn't

Doesn't he realize that she'd

not be the same she used to be

after having gone through his

episode of whatever it may be

That the likelihood that she'll

ever get back to herself is nil

how he killed her abilities for

spontaneity and feeling secure

When a friend makes another

friend kiss the brink in this way

it breaks something in you

Makes you feel things differently

So for him to even suggest

what he's doing now, beggars belief

In the same token, his apology

ended with a new request for help

He called her his Guardian Angel

but throttled, battered, tattered

on the floor he left her to fade out

Could she realistically ever forget