F.i.in.e Moods

- que d'anxiétés perpétuelles... 

Sorry, I can't do this anymore.

It does my head in too seriously.

When people start conversations,

And for some reason, drop them.

Usually when I decide to partake in

Is when they seem to feel the need to.

They become absolutely, completely silent.

Let that silence linger without explanation.

But they're the ones who sought me out.

Then leave me dangling in all uncertainties.

It feels like what I say must be so

Idiotic or uninspiring, not worth time,

For them to feel so comfortable

About being so rude my way.

Eh, might be a cultural impression, but social

Etiquette surely doesn't differ that vastly...

And when something happens frequently,

Have to figure something's obviously wrong.

So, I'm sorry, I just can't do this anymore.

Being online does my head in too much.

Keep wondering what it'd be like if this apparent

'Online etiquette' was applied to 'real life' moments.

Conversations would look something like :

I reply to you, you stand there in dead silence,

Either looking at me or simply walking away.

It's the very same awkwardness in either spaces.

Not figuring out why this effect isn't considered online

And everyone forgets they don't like to be treated this way.

But, eh, I guess my circumstances make online

Communications more than most take them for.

Again looks like the problem is mine, so I'll retreat.

I need to redefine what they are, but it's not coming.

So, I'm sorry, I just can't do this anymore.

Being online does my head in too seriously.

So, what does it mean

You always watching

But never saying anything?

It's truly unsettling.

Or how about

Me always wondering

But never saying anything?

Insecurity's a powerful thing.

- obviously not suggesting all men are like this or are my thoughts meant in an offensive light ('defective gene' part), but which women of power ever did/do such things? probably not as eloquently put as it could be, but it's difficult to be any sort of eloquent when upset... 

It strikes me as a defective gene some

from the male counterpart of our species

appear to be battling with.  Through the

ages, it's been about conquering lands,

and acquiring power in as vast an area

as possible, to utter mad obsession.  That

old drive seems to be well and thriving

once again, and so difficult to contain.

This need to have all power over others.

This need to be in control of everything.

This need to feel like THE big man.

It's been going on and on through time, and

although the story may settle down for a while,

such occurrences'll always pop back up.  This

ugly head will never want to relent its place as

It seems these men will always naturally exist.

History maps it out well enough.

Today lives it again.

A heartbroken world cries and fears

as yet another 'man of power' snatches

away peace and hopes from all.

Eh cibole ! C'est l'cas de

l'dire, on gèlent comme

des p'tits cretons à matin !

J't'en train d'virer

en popsicle sur place !

Comme Gilles Vigneault

chantait dans sa chanson :

« Mon pays c'est l'hiver ».

Oui, monsieur !  C'est plein

dans l'mille c'qu'i' disait-là.

Souvent à partir d'octobre

jusqu'à la fin d'avril qu'on

peut voir la neige à l'entour.

Mais l'pire sont les jours

venteux de -25 Celsius,

Pas trop une rareté, ça.

Alors, c'est l'cas de l'dire,

on gèlent comme des p'tits

cretons à matin !

Eh cibole !

Comparing you and my walls,

I'd say it's similar in
That neither say anything...
But you, you expect me
To catch what you mean.

- was a 'toasty' -17 C / 1 F today... but the pic is the view from my bedroom window the other morning after a night of snowfall... I'm in a semi-basement apartment, windows are at ground level...

"Bon, I have to go shovel the windows."

Bet you don't hear that one often. (wink)

- thoughts about the LGBTQIA++++ 'movement'... recent conversations with a friend got me thinking... if my thoughts are misguided, please let me know how they are so I can adjust myself....

what I mean by 'personality issues' : personal foibles or disorders...

discrimination (n.) : the practice of unfairly treating a person or group differently from other people or groups of people.

But the types of discriminations it's about have dire consequences which severely impede a person's ability to function in our society.  Being denied access to employment, housing, community opportunities or support, and so many other things we take for granted 'cause they've never been denied to us in such a society-sanctioned way... it's unconscionable, in my view... so my thoughts revolve around all those aspects... and I'm a bit wondering, at the same time...

I'm most likely uninformed,
'Cause these are realities
I wouldn't know firsthand,
But from what I understand,
Here's my outsider's view on it:

LGT are THE groups who have
Suffered the most horrendous
Of discriminations in history.
As for B, well, not sure how exactly,
I'd need an explanation on that one...

As for every other letter that've
Been piling on over recent years,
Well, those come across to me
As personality issues which are
So very far from relating to

Any of what LGT is about.
I don't understand why the
Movement is going along with
All of these additions that
Bear no relevance to their cause.

Their cause is about discrimination,
Obtaining basic rights as citizens,
Obtaining safety for their lives,
And enjoying a dignity being denied
For reasons impossible to justify.

Their cause isn't about sex or individual
Preferences or biological mismatches.
It's about DISCRIMINATION
Brought on by those reasons, which,
Really, are no one's business!

But personality issues wanting to be
Viewed as the same the movement is about
Is truly the best way to confound the
Initial point of why the movement exists.
Really not doing themselves any favors, I think.