marketa has never seen me like this

worried

restless  handwringing

unable to breathe properly

i had hoped

she never would   alas   i am in a state

because she has had a scare

the kind

a doctor delivers in steady tones   

all emotion drained from her voice

now tests

will follow   and then what   we don't know

i had hoped to be her rock through such times

in sickness and in health

~

we are up early   a procedure at the hospital

five a m

i am shaky   but better 

last night i was not good   now

as i dress

i wear my lucky socks   silly   but

they are cheery   they make me smile

it will be okay

but it will be some time before our life resembles

what it has been   i will be here for her

though i may be the one

needing their hand held    i hope

i can rise to the occasion   i seem to be generating

a litinay of hope

~