For someone who will never hear me.


I Remember You

Dearest you,

Do you remember me? It's been a while I know, but we had a few classes together in high school. I had longer hair then, was a little quieter, a little more innocent and naive. It's okay.

All that's important is that I remember you.

Maybe I remember you more than I should. We never spoke, never had the same circle of friends. We probably didn't have too much in common, but there will be days you flood my mind, like today.

Today is just like any other day. I had my coffee, saw my mother. The sun is shining - it's summer. It's a normal day, but out of all the days, today is the day you came into my mind. I'll always wonder why.

I remember dreaming of you. It was a long time ago, but I recall it like it was yesterday. I wandered around our school for no reason in particular and there you were, smiling like nothing was wrong. Enjoying time with your silhouetted companions. I had to catch your attention. I needed to know if it was really you. You didn't know you were dead. When I told you, you seemed so confused. I know at first you didn't believe me, but after I went on about how you died (at least, what I knew), everything started to settle in. I saw it on your face. The acceptance.

Even now, I wonder if that was really you in my dream, a spirit - if you were just a little lost and needed some guidance from someone who understood your pain.

I understand more than you'll ever know. I wish I could go back in time and tell you that. Tell you that everything will be okay, to remind you that even though you feel like a hurricane on the inside, your destructive weather will calm, and you'll continue on.

I'll always remember the day our English teacher paired us up for a brief moment for a short project. You came and sat next to me. I was nervous because I had never spoken to you, and I didn't know if you would be like everyone else and wouldn't know how to approach me, like I was some wild animal too unpredictable to be tamed. But you weren't like the others. You had a meaningful conversation with me, treated me like the rose I was - pricked yourself because you knew that's just how I was, and you accepted it. I'll never forget that moment with you.

I'm sorry you felt so out of control, felt like it wouldn't ever stop. I'm sorry your only option was to leave. I just hope you know how great of an impact you made on all of us. You were so loved, by so many. I just wish you were reminded when you needed to remember it most.

I'll always remember you, even on the most unexceptional days.

Like today.




Words by Bijou
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Written on 2017-08-22 at 23:06

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Deeps
Tender and true...always and forever
So sad and yet love makes it so beautiful for us to read.
2017-08-23


Kathy Lockhart The PoetBay support member heart!
This letter is heart breaking but a beautiful piece of poetry telling of a silent, unrequited love lost so tragically. Such a tender and honest telling of events opens this to all to grasp the haunted grief that still remains. Wonderfully painted with words. kathy
2017-08-23


Ashe
What a very nice letter! Maybe you are two souls looking for each other, or maybe just a very fond memory. There are people who never leave our hearts. It's a beautiful and tender write.
Ashe
2017-08-22