Happiness is not as momentary as they say it is.
The desire for happiness lingers.
Aren't human desires the very essence of human existence?

I need to need someone again.
I know it sounds desperate;
I know it's a vain pursuit;
I just want to know that feeling again.

I want to feel that fear again -
That fear of letting someone know me too well,
That fear of being too close to ever let go.

Maybe I just need something to occupy my mind -
A new passion,
Not necessarily a person,
But nothing fills the room like human presence.

I shrink into myself -
Too consumed in the person I've been,

The person I am,

The person I'm becoming and,

The person I need to be -
Too consumed in myself to need anyone else.

Yes, it is just the mind

And not the heart that yearns for newness.
Give me something new to think about.
I am inured to feelings anyway.
Just keep my mind working
And my cold heart will follow its lead.