June 30, 2019.

last day of pride month, hope you're all living your truth. 




she is now a he (happy pride month)

swinging open the closet door, hearing it's whimper

as if I'm pulling off a bandage from a wound

old prom dresses, a graduation gown, and my mother's denim jacket

I inhale the dust and old perfume

 

In black garbage bags, a life I used to lead finds shelter

And then they are given a second chance with someone who will 

smile comfortably in the mirror and adjust them with pride

I shed my cocoon and offer my wings, I will no longer hide

 

And I think to myself, what I would say to the people who wore them next

I think of my father who felt a sudden pain in his chest

when he saw I would never be seen in another dress

he didn't understand then but he was trying his best

 

"Oh, I knew the girl who wore these

She shrived from existence and that may sound dreadful

if it weren't for the fact she never felt alive to begin with

But I heard from her ashes rose contentment"

 

And it took a while to get there, 

from nights crying about why I was like this

to being pushed down stairs and being teased for what I did to my hair

to self harm scars and losing the friends I still miss

 

And now, I watch my own existence being threatened

A military ban, a bathroom bill, trans students protections revoked

I was set to go to college in North Carolina but they had just legalized 

pepper spraying me if I was in the restroom and I was scared to go

 

I would not change the decision to come out for anything

That closet I walked out of has left room for so many possibilities

So, yes, I knew the girl who wore these

but she now goes by he

 

and he is finally free





Poetry by aidan haskel The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2019-06-30 at 08:53

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The reader bows to the fierce honesty of this finely made poem.
2019-06-30


ken d williams The PoetBay support member heart!
In 1967, the U K Parliament were debating legerliseing homosexuality, lebeisam was never elege. I was at sckool at the time. A T V progame, was due to hold it's own debate, I ask my mother to let me stay up to watch it, mum said: ' No you have school in the morning, I will ask your dad to explaine it it tro you''. So I wnet of to bed. Later dad came home from work. Mum duly told mum of wonting to know about it all. Dad dind not hesataite, cme up to my besdroom, woke me up. ' mum said your were asking questans about just what homosexuality is''; well son, homosexualerty is just men who love outher men'' ; I said '' thank you dad'. I went back to sleep, dad whent bsack down stitrres to have his supper. Fear comes from egnorance, enlitan others espeshery childrin, progame chilldren with knowlege, so replaseing egnorannce with knowlege.
2019-06-30