November 8, 2020.




a mime that likes dialogue

there's a certain sophistication in communication

that i like to observe but never engage in

i'm a shoulder shrugger and thoughtful nodder

a good listener but never the problem solver

 

and i've noticed that on a day when i use my voice

it almost always goes hoarse

my vocal cords are deteriorating 

and with every crack i hear myself fading

 

i can never order my own food when i'm out

i stick to the same items at each place

choice is nerve wrecking and so is speaking aloud

i don't want to waste time, stutter, or hear my voice break

 

took me years to get the nerve to check out at stores

i count my money five times before i even get in line

polite conversation they make terrifies me to my core

and none of my family or friends understand why

 

i'm a mime that likes dialogue

with a tongue that keeps being bitten

i punish myself in that way; in fear of being wrong

my thoughts only have me as a witness

 

never the hand raiser but a forward thinker

never the slam poet or the ice breaker

just a mime that likes to study minds and tinker

but abandons mine like i'm a paper shredder 

 

always gathering data and taking notes

learning social cues and doesn't dare to interrupt

i'm a gentle nudge, i'm an angry whisper

a book with the pages ripped out and my mouth full of blisters





Poetry by aidan haskel
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Written on 2020-11-08 at 19:38

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Amy Valentina
There's a certain translucense in your writings that quite enjoyable, relatable and thought provoking.
It's witty and sophisticated at the same time.
Keep writing, I love your work.

Regards,
Amy
2020-11-09


Thomas D The PoetBay support member heart!
You've taken a sentiment that's difficult to express, and you've expressed it beautifully and vividly. Well done.
2020-11-08


one trick pony The PoetBay support member heart!
You are quickly becoming a writer I respect very much.
2020-11-08