February 19, 2021.


so i guess this is not a poem at all

poems are supposed to make you feel something
but right now i'm so numb
that i can't feel the tears running down my face
so i guess this is not a poem at all

and i suppose i've tried to cover it all up
with whiteout and pretty lies
but this sort of mark is too stubborn
it lingers even when you've ran out of tears to cry

poems are supposed to mean something
but right now i'm so hollowed out
--this emptiness has sucked out any remaining inspiration,
motivation, and replaced dreams with hesitation

and i suppose i've tried to cover it all up
with sharpie marker and "i'm fine"
but it's getting harder to leave bed
it's getting easier to ask, "why?"

poems are supposed to get better over time
but right now i can't really read what i write
all i find is mistakes and cliches
and opportunity for growth, but refusing steps for change

and i suppose i've tried to cover it all up
with band-aids and silly rhymes
it's getting easier to fall into self doubt
and it's getting harder to feel pride

i am supposed to feel things
i am supposed to mean something
i am supposed to get better over time
i'm falling short on living my life

and my mind won't let me forget it
because there is not enough white out or pretty lies,
there is not enough sharpie markers and "i'm fine"
and there will never be enough band-aids or silly rhymes







Poetry by aidan haskel
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Written on 2021-02-19 at 11:20

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Maija Liepins
self expression in flow, this is where the creative flow comes from, keep going! x
2021-02-19


ken d williams The PoetBay support member heart!
Of course you have written a poem
& written the poem very well
Very well indeed, Aidan, so well expressed
Ken D
2021-02-19