Dear Reader,

I realize what I write about isn't easy material to respond to most of the time, and you're maybe wondering why I share all of that to the world, and the simple answer to that is because I am alone and I have no one around to talk about these things.

I've been writing like this for the last twenty years on PoetBay, so a lot of you know enough parts of my life to know that it's been difficult.  And that I've spent a lot of time trying to make things better for myself so that I can free myself from the symptoms of my traumas that made me unable to function for so many years.

I've reached a point in my recovery that I'm now functional and a whole lot better at managing any symptom that pops up.  I'm continuing my efforts to make things better for myself and right now what I'm working on is the social aspect of things for me that is still lacking.  I have lived isolated for so many years of my life, there is really no one around in my life today.  But I wish to change that... I crave to make connections with others.

I'm currently still unsure on how to go about changing this situation.  But I'm working on it.

I'm also processing a new reality for me which is starting to take more space.  The loss of my mobility because of the hEDS.  I'm finding this part a little difficult at the moment.

So all this to say, I realize what I write about may be a lot at times.  I'm sorry, it's obviously not to dampen the mood.  But thanks, I appreciate your time.  I'm just figuring out stuff and it's nice when others are involved... 'cause I spend way too much time alone with my head.