- not meaning to complain, just I'm so very exhausted...

It feels like I've spent

A majority of my life

Hoping for it to come

To an end for some relief

And as things stand now

It looks pretty clear that'll

Never go away, it'll grow

Stronger along as this

Inevitable deterioration

Only worsens in time and my

Energy completely disappears

All this suffering will get me

In the end, no doubt about it

It's wearing me out fiercely

And with no remedy possible

This hope only intensifies

I'm ok, but not entirely, as

Now it's my body that's failing

I'm not in a state of despair, but

Can feel it close to settling in

I try to ward it off as best I can

Realistically, though, I have

Serious doubts I'll be successful

I'm physically so very tired now

Everything is so difficult to do

Simple to less simple it's the same

Every movement is like undertaking

The challenge of climbing mountains

So much energy is required

That I just don't have anymore

And solutions are inexistent, feels 

All I have left is this morbid hope