Yeah, you might be right,

I'm feeling pretty miserable.

I'm finding myself awake

At 2am or 3am again unable

To sleep 'cause my body is

In a storm of physical pain.

So, yeah, it's starting to get to

Me, I'm completely exhausted.

Not being able to sleep is putting

Me back in my past hell, 'cause

I'm too weak to ward it off then.

You're right, I'm totally miserable.

But, as you know, nothing can be

Done about that one, just got to

Get on with it as best as I can.

I'll be honest with you, I'm not

Sure for how much more time

I'll be able to withstand it, though.

Not to be melodramatic about it,

But everyone's got their limit.

The intensity of my pain has been

Increasing lately, and it's just the

Start.  No improvements in 8 years,

Only this progressive deterioration.

I can't begin to describe what my

Body feels like on a daily basis.

What it feels like to make simple

Movements, forget the less simple.

There isn't a moment any time in

My body where there isn't pain.

It's a constant whether I move or not.

After a while, it tends to get to me.

As I expressed a couple weeks ago,

Trying to not let despair settle in,

But it's kind of tugging at me and

Not wanting to let go, pulling hard...

And I'm in no shape for a battle.