- perspective :  mental health crises on repeat... causing fear accompanied by overwhelming doubts...

After two resuscitations and

Three hospitalizations since June,
It's looking to me like I'm on my
Sure way toward losing this battle...

Really not to be dramatic, but it's

Seriously feeling like this is it: 

The beginning of the end, all the

While I can't do anything about it.

I'm fearful that I won't make it

Through this, 'cause I still am

Unable to gain control over it, and

It takes over so frequently now.

I'm struggling to figure out

Exactly what's going on with that,

And my latest statistics contradict

That I'll figure it out in time...

It sure looks like I won't succeed.