- perspective :  ineffective management of dangerous obsessive episodes... desperation...

If you knew how I dealt with it

You'd be shaking your head in

Disagreement, I know it for sure.

Even I don't agree with it much,

But I'm so desperate to stop myself

That I go for it anyway, knowing

This isn't the way to solve anything;

It can get out of hand in no time ...

But at the same time, it's the quickest.

So while I fight off the urge to slice

The length of my arms, I down a bottle

To reach the sweet oblivion of blackout

As it's the only thing that can stop me.

It's not good at all, it makes me violently

Ill as my body doesn't tolerate it at all,

But I'm so desperate to stop myself

That I go for it anyway 'cause

I just don't want to die from this.

I know this is the worst decision,

However, there aren't any other viable

Alternatives that have been found yet

And I need something now,

'Cause if nothing stops me,

I will end up losing my life.

I really don't want that.