i have forgotten how to..

i have forgotten how to
smile with a little glint in my eyes

the eagerness of next moment unfolding
doesnt make sense to me now..anymore

yes you would well be looking at
a deadbody breathing but ..
will you then stop
and look deep down my feelings
and smell the pain?

will you then.. only..watch me struggling to look alive?

I wear to disguise
I wait to live

days were at a time filled with colors
nights were heart warming
playing in the rain..i would shout and smile..
life seemed overwhemling with joy..o boy..
casual lovely hours of frolic..with eyes that spoke.. millions

now that the door has closed..
now that the life has cast a black spell
on me..i dont dream..
i have forgotten how to..


Nothing dilutes the pain..
no..tears dont..even..
the whisper of life with a warm promise
has died out..no..
i dont ..pray..
i have forgotten how.. to.



Poetry by rini mahapatra
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Written on 2007-03-05 at 16:33

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this is a very expressive image of pain feeding upon one's soul...and as much as the image itself hurts, the overall poem induces a bitter sweet sensation inside my heart, opening hidden gates of the soul and mind...splendid! i find myself enthralled and so eager to read you again...
Lilly xxx
2007-03-05