Parnika

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Valentine's Day

Written 2007-02-12

The reasons I love Valentine's Day
1. Chocolate
2. Teddy bears
3. The way the air smells sweet
4. Hope
5. Poetry-it follows from everyones veins
6. Love Songs-those that are not talking of lust or forever can actually make sense.

The reasons I hate Valentine's Day
1. Roses-They are so bloody clichéd
2. Over advertising on anything pink and fuzzy
3. Cuddly couples
4. Pressure
5. Waste of money
6. Mushy cards



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Responses to 'What would you do if I died tonight?'

What would I do if you died tonight?

Written 2007-02-12


"I know wat id do now, I'd hope that doesn't happen. Wat the heck is the matter with u!"—Sushantika, 7-Feb-2007, 9:08pm

"Feeling really low..need to be told what I'm worth"-Me

"Gosh! I knew it! Don't say such things! Plz! I hope u aren't suicidal. My sis 2 frends committed suicide and their moms are having to deal with the loss..."-- Sushantika, 7-Feb-2007, 9.13pm

"No, it's not that bad...I would never do that..."—Me

"...Its awful. Trust me even I feel that way at times. But ultimately u realize its ptless."—Sushantika, 7-Feb-2007, 9:14:48pm

"Sorry. Look at me rattling away. Assuming things. Sory.talk to me, wats bothering u?"—Sushantika, 7-Feb-2007, 9.16pm

"Was listening to my funeral song on the radio. Its my funeral song and it made me feel there is nothing that's forever..not life, not love, not nothing, forever doesn't exist and that scares me"—Me

"Yeah. Me too. Its like all u need is a hug but it feels like 4ever to get it."—Sushantika, 7-Feb-2007, 9.17pm

"No. tell me. That sorta thing has to happen to me before. But that phase passed. Whats bugging u man?"—Sushantika, 7-Feb-2007, 9.21pm

"True and also no one knows your true worth. U gotta stay strong and I know its tiring but in the end it makes it all worth it!"—Sushantika, 7-Feb-2007


"What kind of question is THAT?!?"—Madhu, 7-Feb-2007, 9.44pm

"Sorry babe. Just feeling real low. Need to be reminded why I'm alive."—Me

"You mean the world to everyone who knows you...Your not being here would devastate everyone you know. You're you, like I said earlier :-) and you my dear are irreplaceable. Now quit wallowing and watch heroes and greys with me..."—Madhu, 7-Feb-2007, 9:58:45pm ^*undeletable*
"Too afraid to show my mom my teary self"—Me

"Wipe your tears away kiddo its all good. Life's good. Enjoy it all...Tv will help, trust me.." —Madhu, 7-Feb-2007
"Mom is more bothered if I washed my hands and bro is watching stupid Jay Leno so u guess who the loser is.."—Me

"Oh I tell you. Make lemonade out of the lemons. Enjoy the Jay Leno show. Enjoy that instead.."—Madhu, 7-Feb-2007


"Was listening to my funeral song on radio...cos someone hasn't posted it to me yet...and cried and wrote a poem called 'What would you do if I died tonight?"..asked some friends the q and instead of answering they thought I was being suicidal or smt..dumb shits!"—Me

"Chuma no ppl think talking about death is suicidal. Dumb shits only."—Akshay, 9-Feb-2007, 01:42:57

"Ya..and then when it happens to them they lose it"—Me
Can't remember what exactly I said but I meant that ppl should not treat death as a taboo..talking bout it helps dealing with it.


"Was listening to my funeral song on radio...and cried and wrote a poem called 'What would you do if I died tonight?"..asked some friends the q and instead of answering they thought I was being suicidal or smt..dumb shits!"—Me

"Hehe swolpa mad only. You and them. Well you are what company you keep. Hehe posted it?"—Nehal, 9-Feb-2007, 01:43:34

"No..stupid poet bay allows only 5 posts per week no..have to wait till sun..Why is talking of death such a taboo?"—Me

"Cos it signifies end. Don't think its taboo. I guess people just rather talk about happier stuff"—Nehal, 9-Feb-2007, 01:47:39

"Ya..it's only ppl like u and me who are obsessed with death...remember beginning of first sem pk was talking bout death in lit and we dedicated a whole page to the topic.."—Me

"Hehe we did? I don't remember nothing. We are obsessed cos we don't really know what death is. Simply. Its just those mysterious things that make us curious. That's all."—Nehal, 9-Feb-2007,01:52:02

"Ya, like an unsolvable detective story!"—Me





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thinking of the song wonderwall...and how the words are exactly what I want to say. Also written in College on the 22nd of Sept.

You're my Wonderwall

Written 2006-09-25

"I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.
There are many things that I would like to say to you but I donno how"—Oasis, "Wonderwall"
So perfect these lines are for me and you.
Nothing, no one can say it simpler.
How do I say these things? When? Why?
What are these things? They fill my head until it explodes. I donno what I'm thinking about but it all revolves around you and what you are to me. Do you know how much I care? I told you once but...


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Some free association writing done in class when I can't get my mind off these thoughts, these feelings..
Written just before the poem Chocolate Sunshine..serves as a background

It becomes impossible to think

Written 2006-09-25

It becomes impossible to think
When you're feeling so hard
Think hard, Think strong.
We'll always be friends who love each other
We may not be attracted to each other physically
But we have an invisible bond which ties us together for life. No one, nothing can destroy that except ourselves. We decide who we are, who we want to be to each other.
He is the most lovable, nice guy there is. He makes me smile. I make him smile. Sometimes me makes me cry, tears that make no sense.
Question the whole thing. If you were to ask him out what would you say?
" You wanna make your dream come true?
We can go and have Mint Chocolate chip ice cream in the cold." Feel weird with it and live in discomfort. It is better to let it be as it is.
It's nice now. "Aww" he said. But I can't stop feeling, thinking. I don't need to know where we're going but I need to know where we are. Hugs, kisses, smiles they are fine but what else? What brought us here? What makes us stay here, stagnant.... There are holes in my heart
Pieces I can't figure out, I can't piece together. It's the only jigsaw I haven't completed yet.


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I listen to Darren Hayes everyday. 'Bad Day' is my favourite. This is what I wrote while listening to it. It's free association writing you can actually understand.
PS.Pani is what my mom calls me

Bad Day

Written 2006-08-12

Blue skies fade to grey
Passion's gone away............
Faking a smile
Life's been way off line
Pani needs a blue sky holiday
Sing a sad song just to turn it around
Had a bad day
I'm having one perfect day after another in college..life couldn't be better...and yet today I'm sittin in front of my comp screen and sheddin tears like a baby....can't explain mood swings, can u?
I was once told tht I smile well, often and contagiously...................................I still do .
But you can't make me smile today.
You can't teach me to frown either coz I'm a professional.
I wish it would rain,rain so hard that you won't be able to tell the difference between the tear drops and the rain drops on my face.





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