This, for my friend. I feel heavy. It wearies me. And I don't know how do I get out of this cycle.


Vicious Cycle

I think of you. I think of the times we were together and I get lost in my thoughts. Reality hits and I'm again there lying in the bed, staring at the ceiling and still thinking of you. Thinking how you've forgotten me. I try not to let negative thoughts in and browse my Insta feed. Again you're there- happy with your friends. I zoom in and stare at the photograph,I don't find myself there, I get sad and sometimes cry.No matter how many times I initiated the conversation, no matter how many times you left my messages on seen, I think of giving a try one last time and message you. You again leave my message on seen. I feel unwanted, ignored and try to move on. Weeks after, there's a message in my empty message box. Somewhere in my head I know it's you. Turns out, it's you. I get numbed with happiness. I forget and forgive.We've few exchanges. I write a paragraph long message and you again leave it on seen. Distraught of the feeling that I've lost you, I'm there again, staring blankly at the ceiling with a mind full of your thoughts.



Poetry by Terry
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Written on 2020-11-03 at 08:13

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Bibek The PoetBay support member heart!
I know how it feels. I've been there and felt that. I hope it gets better with time. Thanks for sharing this! :)
2020-11-06


one trick pony The PoetBay support member heart!
As a vicious cycler I appreciate this. Very well expressed.
2020-11-03