Not going so well,

I'm feeling like I'm

Coming undone,

Something's wrong.

I can't well explain

What's going on, but

It's throwing me off kilter

Big time, and I'm afraid.

So I'll be away for a

While, don't know for

How long, but I need to

Not stay alone with this,

'Cause I'm just not gaining

The control I need to stop.

If I stay here, I'll do it and

End up killing myself again.

But the next time, I'm sure

That I won't be coming back.

It's happened too many times

Already having to be revived.

This probability is no doubt

On its very last stretches, and

I really don't want to find out.

So to avoid doing what I know

I'll keep doing, I'll be committing

Myself this time before another

Situation arises where that decision

Is made for me out of emergency.

I can't well explain

What's going on, but

It's throwing me off kilter

Big time, and I'm afraid.

I don't want to die.