Listen, I know I'm fucked up.

You don't have to worry about

Me not knowing that I am...

Believe me, I'm fully aware.

I've done my best to repair

The damages that were caused

To me, but let's be realistic, I've

Been through a lot of extremes.

So, in all truth, it's actually pretty

Surprising that I've come this far

And haven't completely lost my

Sanity or finally lost my life yet.

Add to all this mess my physical

Condition that causes immense pain.

To be honest, I'm hanging by a thin

Thread lately, it's all overwhelming.

I've been fighting for years to gain

Some sort of control over what's been

Done to me and how it's affected me.

I'm still alive, but for how long, I wonder?

It's not my intention to be dramatic

In what I say about my situation, but

It's a lot to deal with and I'm so exhausted,

Not entirely convinced I'll get on top of this.