fears, anxiety, and doubts


This Person I Am

Tell me you're just passing through
I don't need someone to say, "I do."
I rather have my freedom and be
A woman alone that seldom sees
Someone stirring thoughts in my head
Of frightening commitments that now lay dead.
I am not ready for your loving me.
I am not prepared for marriage to be
A bond that keeps me in your place.
I need my liberty; I need my space.
Please won't you just be satisfied?
I won't be the one again who cried
For ignorant choices made
That leave be bleeding from the cutting blade
That rips into the soul of my spirit.
I cannot take a chance because I fear it.
So, I will take the lonely street
And, I will face the one I meet
Who stares in the face of this mirror.
I am, she, the one who lives here.
Such as I am, I shall be thus so.
I will not act in another spousal show.
If one of us must be in pain
And feel the sorrow of rejection's rain,
I am sorry but it will not be
This person I am, the new whole me.

Kathy Lockhart
10/30/06




Poetry by Kathy Lockhart
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Written on 2006-10-30 at 18:56

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Malin Johansson
It's hard living in fears and anxiety, and its really hard to break habbits and throw ourselves out... because what if we fell to the ground what if we doesnt get catched by someone...
there are so many what if in our lives and in our selves... this poem is heartfelt...
This is really really good...!!!
Take care
Regards
2006-10-31



This excellent text has started a long and complicated chain of thoughts inside me. I can't write any meaningful comment, but I wanna say that I have read it and, as always, admire your wisdom, your integrity and your expressive power
2006-10-31


keith nunes
a powerful piece kathy. well said!
2006-10-31


Phyllis J. Rhodes
Amen, Amen, again and again!
You've got it right!
You're not a doormat,
You're a sprite!
Just keep discovering
the wonder you are
A bold and sparkling
shining star!
(And a great poet!)
2006-10-31


Saga
I choose patience, too. And if they know, they will understand as well!
2006-10-31


brian paglia
Oh Kathy,sometimes I feel I'm just a glutton for punishment,for i too have had my share and beyond of heartache in relationships.Maybe I'm a fool but I refuse to be shaped by another's inability to love.And so I continue to offer my "next"
the very best of me in hopes of living
"Happily Ever After"
2006-10-30


Chris Fernie
Dear Kathy,

I very much admire the person you are - a latter-day pioneer spirit.

Regards, Chris
2006-10-30


wee2souls
My mommakac the strength you show
how you amaze me of who you are today
A strong force you are within your heart and soul.... giving your best of all you do and that my mommakac You show me that every given day and proud of you and How I am so blessed to have you in my life you are all what love is all wrapped in one........

A gift you are to all who love you

love you
cindymac:))
2006-10-30


lastromantichero The PoetBay support member heart!
Hi there Katherine welcome back with this piece ofbeauty well done rgds mike
2006-10-30


Will
No one admires strength quite as much as me, mental, spirtual, physical & emotional.

This write is a testament to the strong Person you are.

Admired INDEED..


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2006-10-30


BlueyedSoul
I love you Kathy!!!! You are right on the mark with this one girlfriend!!!

Wonderful write...I applaud you!
Stay strong in your own skin.

~Blue
2006-10-30