I don't want this anymore
I want to let it go
I'm not who I was before
I have to show you so you know
That I gave away what I fought to gain
That I learned my lesson slow
I longed but my longing was in vain
Cause I lost a long time ago
I needed this but never realized the pain
I only saw illusions in some shadow show
And what I heard weighed on my brain
But I fought for this even so
My victory now my ball and chain
All my happiness now my woe
I thought myself insane
Now when I see my demons I say hello