Look inside my mind

As I hold you close to me,
On this cold cold winter's eve,
I'm surrounded by this feeling of melancholy,
Although I don't think I'd have any right to be.

While some things are getting better,
Others are falling apart,
Some things I can control,
Some things I cannot.

I feel I am abandoning people,
And holding on to others,
I wonder if I'll ever be,
As strong as my mother.

I wish I could save her from this rut,
She tells me to climb out first,
I wish I could protect her from it all,
I wish I could be better.

Maybe one day I might,
Maybe one day it will be okay,
I wish I could predict the future,
And make changes to today.

I know I have no right to be sad when,
Everything looks like it will be alright.

I feel sadness looming over me,
Why can't I just be happy?
I look at you and hope,
That one day I will be.

I play scenarios in my mind,
Of how I could have saved things in the past,
Of warnings I could have given out,
Of preventing people from taking the wrong path.

I could have had a better life,
Now I'm left with anecdotes,
To warn myself of what I shouldn't do,
Of mistakes I shouldn't make,
Of lies I shouldn't tell myself,
That I could have saved things.

Poetry by Kshiti Dubey
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Written on 2020-11-24 at 13:50

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Griffonner The PoetBay support member heart!
A belated reading, Kshiti, for which I apologise. Sometimes we pen words that slip off the edge of the paper without ever making a sound, and so we, the readers, don't take notice of them. These words of yours were like that to me. But why? I cannot say. I am just thankful that my eye was drawn to them. I savoured your words, for your poem is very descriptive and for me tremendously emotive.
I always remember this: Do not ruin today with tomorrow's worries or yesterday's woes. Remember, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday: The only real reality is NOW.

josephus The PoetBay support member heart!
Very well written with a clear use or simple language that doesn’t cloud the poem. Nicely composed.