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NOTE:  2014 03 12  00H50 EST  Lessons -




Lessons

 

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I learned to fear

and navigate through

terror and violence

 

I learned to not trust

adults and not believe

they'd all keep me safe

 

I learned to walk on egg

shells around the twisted

minds my kin battled with

 

I learned to read well

the mood in a room to

avoid running into harm

 

I learned to erase myself

so to attract the least

attention in my direction

 

I learned to be quiet

'cause no one could do

anything anyway

 

I learned very early

that I wasn't important

to anyone; I didn't matter

 

I learned to destroy myself

'cause I believed as much

in my worth as they did

 

I learned to live dead

and away from anything

resembling who I am

 

In the end though,

 

I learned to climb out

of the pits of despair

and to stand before you

 

I learned the words,

how to fend off the pull,

and found I can walk

 

I learned there's more

to me than what's been

attempted to make of me

 

I learned it was all wrong

and out of my hands; the guilt

should've never been mine





Words by F.i.in.e Moods The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2021-07-10 at 13:55

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Lawrence Beck The PoetBay support member heart!
There is a very attractive calm confidence in this poem.
2021-07-11


Hans Bump
I like how you compartmentalized the way that you described your struggles but you presented yourself as a whole person who experienced them Hope that makes sense.
2021-07-10


Chaucer Whethers The PoetBay support member heart!
Strong, subtle and complex musings of intense depth.
Salute my friend.
2021-07-10


Jamsbo Rockda The PoetBay support member heart!
I am glad it has a good ending. Hugs.
2021-07-10