My Days

I stay up late at night hoping
that something will happen
that will have made my day worthwhile

I sleep in the next morning
to hide from my day
anticipating nothing of value from being awake

I take naps to hide
from the overwhelming sensation of guilt
for choices I do or do not make

I have lucid dreams
that confuse my reality
and keep me from meaningful interaction with others

I hide on my phone all day hoping
for someone to contact me
to remind me that I am a real person

I lash out at the few people
that I do interact with
to justify the idea that I will have to be alone later

I cannot separate from my devices
for the fear of missing out
on even the most basic notifications

I crave acknowledgment
to ensure my sanity
yet I am afraid to put myself in a position to be judged

I do not commit
to any activity I do by myself
as it makes it more plausible that existence is imaginary

I am comfortably uncomfortable




Poetry by Paul Vermette
Read 107 times
star mini Editors' choice
Written on 2021-08-04 at 19:04

dott Save as a bookmark (requires login)
dott Write a comment (requires login)
dott Send as email (requires login)
dott Print text


Editorial Team The PoetBay support member heart!
Your poem has been chosen to be featured on the home page of PoetBay. Thank you for posting on our poetry website!
2021-09-02


shells
Excellent read, the art of avoidance is evident, but the final line says it all, a place I have resided also.
2021-08-07


one trick pony The PoetBay support member heart!
This is skillfully written. The sentiments reflect those of a person most dear to me. Thank you for sharing, for the honesty (though I make no assumptions whether it is autobiographical or not). A powerful poem.
2021-08-05


Hans Bump The PoetBay support member heart!
A brilliantly shared self reflection.
2021-08-04