my grandson was taken by his mum when hence,
this scribble at one of my lowest points.
He lives with us know. I'm trying to correct mistakes,
in doing so i pressed the wrong button.


LOVE IS FOUR HUNDRED MILES AWAY

There's nothing so lonely;
As eating a meal for one.
While sitting in a crowded room.
Looking through the windows,
watching the midday sun.

Was the love I gave never received,
or was it something in the past,
that made them leave.
Or was the love only felt by one;
Sweet Marie or Rob,
my ever loving grandson.

Remembering well that bright summer morn,
feeling shattered;
As from my very being their love was torn.
In denial i begin to weep,
only stopping when tiredness gets to much,
then i fall asleep.

Waking in disbelief i wonder,
was loving them my only blunder.
Again i begin to cry;
if only i could have faced them,
i could have said that hated word;
Goodbye.

The word that ripped my soul apart,
on that fateful day.
Then left me with a broken heart,
still weeping, as on the bed i lay.

I sit caressing my only friend,
as though my old revolver knows;
For one of us our life will end.
Pointing the gun towards my head,
with shoulders slumped;
On a dead mans bed.

Wondering when their hatred began,
no they didn't just walk out; They ran.
Feeling as though I've been put upon a rack,
no fragments of happiness left.
I Pull the trigger; Then feel the gun barrel crack.

What cruel twist of fate,
as again i fail.
I feel as though my body's withered,
like a dried up snail.

Uncontrollably i begin to cry,
but no longer feeling so alone.
I here these loving words,
high grandad we're home.



Poetry by Alan J Ripley The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2026-09-10 at 02:31

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And it's good therapy to write. Let it out. Relieve your emotional pain. I cried too, once I knew about your grandson. You are not alone and don't give up. As for my own painful experiences, I prayed and I did not give up. But the scars of emotional trauma don't completely disappear. The potential exists to heal and renew and restore those relationships within the family and others. It can be done. I'm old fashioned- where there is a WILL, there is a WAY. I didn't mention earlier, that as my dying brother's caregiver-- I made it happen, what he most needed and received-- I was able to bring David's ex-wife and David back together in his final months of life. That, in itself, was a miracle. They had achieved long over due reconciliation and closure to the wounds both still carried. She never remarried and neither did he. They still loved each other and it took his death bed to discover that realization
2026-09-10