July 13, 2022.



a pressed wildflower

"Well, don't you feel any better?", she asks
"Oh, I don't know - the emotions bleed together like the days that pass"
I've been - pressing wild flowers with thrifted books that reek of mildew
and drinking tap water from a tall glass on my night stand

It is a pattern of despair and praise
I seem to very seldom bend but always nearly break
Conquer then celebrate far too early
Like the temperature, I fluctuate

Funny though, all these nights of reflection
Not much to show for the time taken
Not really sure if I'm confused by finally being content
or if I've gone numb from being so emotionally shaken

"You have to know if there's a real difference!"
Of course I do, but that's not what you asked
I've been on auto pilot and waking up
- to find myself about to crash

Strange though, all these days of patience
- have made me all too eager
Haven't yet decided if I'm ready to soar or nose dive,
but I'm searching for more than air to keep myself alive



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A little note: I don't think I have ever left a note on my poetry here so hi, everyone. I've been thinking of finding some way to record myself reading all of my poems one by one and putting them somewhere, mostly for sentimental reasons - but I was curious if any of you would be interested in me sharing that? I don't know, thoughts and maybe advice?




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Written on 2022-07-15 at 03:58

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Uncle Meridian The PoetBay support member heart!
The poet's expertise is clearest here in phrases such as "thrifted books that reek of mildew" --- what a former US laureate (Ted Kooser) has called "authenticating detail."

And yes, on recording: if you were (for instance) to start a YouTube channel and post readings of your own poems, I would certainly subscribe! However you decide to proceed, please keep us posted.
2022-07-16


Griffonner The PoetBay support member heart!
An intriguing read, my friend. PM me for some info that might help.
Allen
2022-07-15