Current Mood: reflective...
Current Music: "Le vent nous portera" - Noir Désir & Manu Chao
NOTE: 2022 09 01 21H33 EST Another Type of "Other Side" -
Another Type of "Other Side"
- the unspeakable was lived or witnessed with close people... that's what it was all about...
Feeling so far removed
From that young girl
You met those years ago
When I arrived your way.
Shattered and in tatters is how
You met me for a long time.
With so many unspeakable
Things I laid out there
For anyone who might
Care to know, maybe...
'Cause at that point, what
To do had no answers.
There was so much
Damage to contend with,
And absolutely no one
Around to help through it.
So I put it out there
As I tried to find the words
To process the unexplainable
I've been subjected to in life.
I often tried to depict
The terrible pain it all caused,
And how its intensity would
Grow to dangerous levels.
I've nearly destroyed myself
And made my death-wish come true.
I caused my own damage on purpose
Hoping it'd be the very last time.
But here I am, still standing now.
Even when it was taken from me,
Or when I made it happen myself,
Life didn't want to leave me.
I don't know how many times
It was nearly over for good,
Yet, here I am still, and that part
Makes me wonder sometimes.
As I said, though, feeling so far removed
From the ruthlessly unending nightmare.
I know every bit is from my life, I lived it,
But I don't view it the same or feel it anymore.
For the very first time,
I feel it's going to be ok.
It's not a feeling I'm used to,
But it's really soothing to feel.
Diary by F.i.in.e Moods
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Written on 2022-09-02 at 03:35
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