A kind of song I wrote for my mother.

I'm sorry!

There's so many things I wish to tell you,
all the shit that I do.

But you'd crush me like a thousand bugs,
if you knew
that I was using drugs.

Mama, I'm sorry!
Didn't mean to fall,
but I fell.
I'm so sorry,
I always seem to let you down,
guess I've always been the stupid clown.
I'm sorry!

Wish I could say it all belongs to the past,
that the first time I tried
was also the last.

But one became unnumbered times,
cuz I don't remeber
while I'm writing these lines.

Mama, I'm sorry!
Didn't mean to make you cry,
but I did.
I'm so sorry,
I'll do what I can to make it up to you,
belive me I wish you saw me through.
I'm sorry!

Poetry by Bowjonozz
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Written on 2005-08-23 at 17:13

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liz munro The PoetBay support member heart!
This has made me cry.
I've never done drugs
but because I got myself in debt
and my Mum has/had my money
I got angry after a fight last week [19-20/02/06] and kicked her out of my life.

I've descover sometimes sorry
is not enough when you badly hurt someone esp. with the written word
and over money.


"But one became unnumbered times,
cuz I don't remeber
while I'm writing these lines."

cuz and remeber...the incorrect words almost seem to add to the meaning of the poem. i don't know how to explain it, but i'll try. you don't remember, so you are uneducated to the history...cuz is the uneducated word of because, and remember is incorrectly spelled, as an uneducated person might spell it. i don't think that's what you meant to do...but that's what i took out of it.

it is good that you are getting help too. :))

mama found out and she didn't kill me, neither did daddy. turns out they used to do it too.


chasingtheday The PoetBay support member heart!
i was addicted to drugs in the early 90's, i do not take them at all now. ii just drink. it is good that you are getting help.

cuz...thought I had changed that word. Sorry about that. I belive it is easy for other people to say it's just to stop, just quit. But it's a hell to get away from.
Now I've been lucky to get over the worst, but there's still a long way for me to go. But I'm really lucky though, I'm among the few who really gets the help we need to get out.

chasingtheday The PoetBay support member heart!
cuz - you do not shorten other words, why put that word short? i realise that is how you may speak but poetry is about art in my opinion, it should not be just thrown down.

remeber - remember

well the best way to say sorry would be to stop! if you are putting your life in danger every time you take drugs, and i am talking of the hard drugs here, then you are not sorry at all!