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Sorry folks.
Seems I've had better day's
In the life i've shared.
Here on poetbay,
Everything still isn't right,
Having trouble coalescing,
What I'm confessing.
Before I had my hospital stay,
I had an extra infection. Possibly
after I fell down hard on one knee.
(Sepsis). With D.K.A
( Didn't find out till the other day ),
Still waiting for an x-ray.
I've still got blood test,
And cardiology along the way.
With the dentist waiting,
To see me on another day.
My thoughts are drifting,
Away from poetbay.
For me it feels like,
There's nothing left.
It used to take,
Very little time.
To finish off a rhythm,
Now I struggle with every line.
I still strive to write,
At least I'm sleeping most night's.
Waking up in agony, dieing for a pee.
It's no fun being me. On top that
We've just found out,
My carol has mixed dementia too.
Sorry I don't mean to make you cringe,
It seems all I do is whing.
Theirs a lot of people out there,
That I cannot see,
That are a lot worse off,
Than the wife and me.
My heart goes out to them,
As do all my prayers.





Poetry by Alan J Ripley The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2026-06-05 at 18:23

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Sameen The PoetBay support member heart!
Take care, Legend.
2026-06-08


Editorial Team The PoetBay support member heart!
Your poem has been chosen to be featured on the home page of PoetBay. Thank you for posting on our poetry website!
2026-06-08


Melinda K Zarate The PoetBay support member heart!
Alan, I am so sad to read of your and your wife’s medical issues. Know you mean a great deal to me and I’m sure many if not most of us here. Hoping for better news soon. Hugs. BIG HUGS!
2026-06-06


shells
Thinking of you Alan, you are a legend, take care.
2026-06-06


Griffonner The PoetBay support member heart!
Hi my dear friend, This is sad news. I have such empathy for your situation. I think we oldies all understand how our health can let us down - some more seriously than others we say. I am sending out positive energy to you and your dear wife. May your God bless you.
It's no consolation to know about other people's problems, even those you assess as being worse than your own, because when these things enter your life only you know what level of significance you yourself assign to them, and we doubt that anybody actually wants to be ill, don't we.
Keep up the good fight, Alan.
Blessings and brotherly love to you and yours, Allen
2026-06-05


ken d williams The PoetBay support member heart!
Thinking out to you, my dear Friend, Alan.
Kenny D.
2026-06-05


Clara Mae Gregory The PoetBay support member heart!
I pray for you, your wife and many others suffering.
I admire you- your work is proof. You made your mark. I love you--
Most misunderstand when I say those words. I love you because all of our lives do matter. What I admire is the expression of yours which is unique, as all are unique. I want to hear you speak until you can no longer do it. I think Wade and I are beginning to show early signs of dementia too. His younger brother just had a stent put in his carotid in his neck. He recently had a minor stroke. A good friends parents also got alzheimers about the same time. Her mother passed first. What was so very sad, due to the dementia, he asked where his wife was everyday after she died because he couldn't remember it had happened until he was reminded. I can't imagine having to grieve for the loss in such a manner. Alan, I don't think I could handle it unless I forgot also, that it is my spouse. I hope Wade and I die at the same time. Most of my friends are widowers. I pray Our Father in Heaven gives you a tranquil and peaceful transition. I do not look forward to one day hearing the saddest news. I guess at our age, it's something we should get use to. But I can't.
2026-06-05