The Dying Patient's Complaint



How can life be possible
in such a mess of human wretchedness and wreckage
of brain surgery and tumour, stroke and cancer,
all at once, and yet they all demand of me to carry on,
return to life in a decrepit ruined body
which impossibly can be restored;
complete recovery is beyond reach;
demanding the impossible is an absurdity,
like this preposterous whole situation;
still, they all do mean a lot to me,
and I am not completely willing to depart
and leave them all behind;
so I am vacillating between life and death.
If they all want me to remain,
my relatives and friends in such a number,
I of course will humour them and stay with them,
but it depends on them entirely;
if they are not sufficient in their love and prayers,
I have not enough of patience to remain in this invalid body
but will have to leave it for a better one,
no matter how much they may love me,
my poor children, relatives and friends,
who after all, no doubt, will understand me if I leave them..




Poetry by Christian Lanciai The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2006-12-26 at 11:30

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josephus The PoetBay support member heart!
The last and final bit of power left to a dying person is the choice to leave. Not through active means but to yield to the natural. Not fight against the process for the sake of other's needs. Love is letting go. Family and friends sometimes demand our being there for unconsious selfish reasons. A Sad demand on a weary warrior.
You put this all in a beautifully clear perspective for me in this piece. Thanks. And paradoxially, Here's to life!

Joe
2007-01-02