Hope...

I woke up this morning alone...
For the first time in a long time...
I am afraid, very afraid to have lost the one thing I hold dear to me
She wasn't near me, you see, she was inside, might as well have been 1000 miles away
Because she wasn't inside of me anymore...
I wonder if it was the disease that seized her soul and turned her black and cold
I cant imagine that I would be forced to picture her dead but she is killing herself right before my eyes...

I woke this morning my eyes weren't fixed upon her, because she wasn't next to me
I feel so empty
I feel as if something monumental had occurred, but it was so trivial,
Actually can't even focus on what stirred her questioning,
Not mentioning that I am blood stricken and sickened as well.
...and hell, I decided to be there with her, to guide her through troubled times
I decided to put up with the pain that accompanies her
While she decides to throw that away
Without the memories of yesterday
Without past smiles and laughs that extended for miles while driving listening to different comedy styles...

I woke up this morning and she was gone
She occupied that spot next to me, I reserved it for her over a year ago and now she is selling it to the highest bidder.
I cant imagine that this pain would make her so bitter, and drive her towards loneliness,...
Only this can help me
I hope it helps her escape this cold place she is relegated to...
I hope she finds love again
For I am without hope and I am now...without words.




Poetry by TheNakedPoet
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Written on 2007-03-04 at 04:46

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Zoya Zaidi
Very complex!
Full of pain, love lost, realization of loss, trying to come to terms with it...
All these feelings rolled into one, make this fragmented piece, very charming indeed... it flows like the fragments of thoughts flow... something like the stream of consciousness...

I am impressed!
How did I miss you all this while?
You stand naked with your thought in front of me...

Welcome to the bay from my side!
Love, Zoya
2007-03-04


kath
it is in your poem, the love felt for someone.. as you care for the feelings that have made her turn away... you also say you love her .. and maybe by beeing there even when she is not it will make a difference ... love can but does not always succeed in mending another persons heart and it hurts deep inside when we reach out and are not let in .. it is such a lonely feeling and that is what your words so beautifully tell me of .. sorrow ....

your words make vivids pictures of this hurt ...
a very heartfelt poem

I wish that the broken hearts of this poem will mend and find love once more ...

best wishes
katherine
2007-03-04


betsy Firefly
It hurts to find the love of your life gone. It hurts and pains, but hope does give us a light at the end of the tunnel. Also when you wish her well and pray for her, you yourself can begin to mend.
Painfully and well written.
2007-03-04