- vaccines aren't medicine, per se, but still a foreign agent my system will have to acquaint itself with...

I'm not a really sick girl on a daily basis,

but if I do get sick, things can go very bad.

This is because my system is immunodeficient.

All viruses I've ever had have always

developed into acute pulmonary infections

that require heavy doses of meds to clear up.

So, with the current situation we're all living,

I'm an absolute nervous wreck at the

possibility of contracting this new one...

I'm really looking forward to the vaccine

and I'm so happy I have my appointment (May 20th),

but there's something else about my system:

it has the tendency to react to all forms

of medication introduced in my body

with usually the most severe side-effects.

I'm not sure if this vaccine will have 

that kind of effect for me, so I'm a bit

stressed about the aftermath of getting it.

But I'm weighing the potential outcomes:

Bad side-effects that will pass, then protect,

Or turn out to be critical, and harm me.

Or get the virus, which thrives in our lungs...

There's no reasonable expectation

that my system would survive its attack.

As I said, I'm happy I'll be getting the vaccine,

But I'm also anxious about how I'll react.

I'm hoping to all hopes it won't be too bad.