I don't know where to throw myself

There's an emptiness that follows me

And I can't seem to shake it off

And I feel myself sinking to depths

Which would really be best to avoid

I don't know why I keep pushing on

To figure some way to live this life

And for as much as I try to find joy

And for as much as it's all useless

I'm still here even though I shouldn't be

I carry on with no clear reasons

As to what's important about it

And I restrain myself from listening

And I try to conserve a sort of care

Through so much constant noise

I, this morning, recover the devastation

Of having survived death's realms then

And I try to reason with myself

And I try so hard to feel different

But I only manage to fail spectacularly