Growing up - falling down

You´ve fallen into sleep and left me alone
in this bedroom of loneliness

And I find myself
falling out of love
and into a deep 
tunnel of doubt
 
Lying here with you after making love
ought to make me happy
but instead I get a horrible feeling 
that I am actually hiding 
from my path in life 

It is as if
some stranger keeps me trapped
in this lonely bedroom 
leaving me and me
in two parts

And I cannot tell myself, you or anybody else
whether this stranger
is me or you
or both of us
or simply everything

It´s scaring to sleep alone
and I wanna stay and I wanna leave
´cause there´s this horrible feeling
that with you by my side
I will only manage 
to survive

                                                                                                                                          You're undoubtedly the most beautiful 
woman I have ever slept with
but I can´t see your soul
and I absolutely can´t feel mine, either
though we´re both completely naked

I can feel my body
and I can see yours
but I cannot feel my mind
and the truth about us
seems to be a lie

All I want is 
a love that´s true and convincing
so I know that I´m not 
cursed

But hey - in the future
we will get married 
and have kids

And soon you´ll wear my ring

That´s great!

You´re so beautiful so
I simply have to pull myself together!

I´m determined
to battle this feeling
of dispair

´Cause this ain´t here, for sure!

The day is dawning and I am
still struggling to convince myself
that you´re the angel that came to earth
to make love to my life

And I see my better me hanging
on the wall 
while you´re sleeping here
ascending the throne as

The Queen of my curse 

Growing up - falling down
Growing up - falling down
Growing up - falling down





Poetry by Sean Ryan Bjerremand
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Written on 2022-06-18 at 07:44

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Griffonner The PoetBay support member heart!
A fine poem where the protagonist clearly is speaking from their core. Love is a double edged sword though, and a relationship requires compromise and acceptance. Sometimes the rose coloured spectacles slip down our noses a bit, and peeking over the top of them we aren't at all sure what we are seeing or feeling. Yet we push them up again and resume. I imagine this is where your final three lines resonate.
Allen
2022-06-18