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I pretended

The past can hunt me all the time.
Sometimes it just sneaks up on me.
It makes me scared and make me wanna fall apart,
But at the same time,
It makes me stand so tall.
Cause it makes me remember everything I went trough,
And that everyone's life is like that sometimes.
It made me wanna die.
It made me feel so sad.
I wanted to cut my self,
But I never did.

And now that the bad time is over,
And I feel so happy inside,
I wanted to be dragged down again.
It was a part of me now.
He made me feel so sad,
And I could cry a thousend tears,
But I kept them all inside.
I couldn't complain when my mother moved out.
It was just a good thing.
I had to pretend for my father.
I pretended.

My life is good now,
I can't complain but I wanna,
Still I don't.
There it just one bad thing that is going on,
But someday I hope it will be gone.
I should be happy and smile everyday,
But someday I don't.
Inside I'm happy and I'm not feeling blue.
But all I want is everything I can't have.
But I'm not complaining,
I'm smiling some fake smiles.





Poetry by kittipuusen
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Written on 2006-06-23 at 16:47

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Love Knight
I KNOW how you feel, i pretend that i have smiles, i hold back tears, and all.
I love this poem.
2006-06-23