Current Mood:  sorry...

Current Music:  "Don't Give Up on Me" - Andy Grammer (feat. PS22 Chorus)

 

NOTE:  2022 10 29  11H31 EST  Ramblings 622 - 




Ramblings 622

 

Things are actually going well,

But not completely these days.

On and off for the last 

Twenty-eight years, and

More than twelve years

Living in total isolation

Is how it's been for me,

And to now find myself

Around people daily,

Outside of my home, too,

Well, it's putting me

In a weird state of terrible

Self-consciousness about

Interacting with others.

 

I can't write anything worthwhile,

I can't leave comments to others,

I can't talk to anyone.

Not that I don't want to,

Just that I'm in a state

Of constant panic

About doing any of it.

I'm feeling very stuck,

And having a hard time

Getting myself out of it.

Feeling so alone, always,

And can't seem to be able

To make this part better

For myself at the moment.





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Written on 2022-10-29 at 17:34

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ken d williams The PoetBay support member heart!
Thinking out to The One
Who made what were thort
Impossible - made posable
Unchained the minds of many
To express them words
Write out to the world
So being read worldwide!
I being one such - say thanks
Ken D.
2022-10-30


Uncle Meridian The PoetBay support member heart!
Sending compassion, mon amie.
2022-10-30


shells
Hold on to your opening line and believe in yourself.
2022-10-29



je pense à haute voix: l'écriture est un passe-temps où j'idéalise mes actes, mes pensées parce que la réalité est trop complexe pour la transmettre en mots. c'est ce que j'ai ressenti en lisant ton texte, spécialement ceci:but not completely these days...(2è ligne) pour moi, nous vivons dans un état d'incomplétude permanent...bien sûr, il y a autre chose dans ton poème qui me fait peur, cette extrême solitude de 12 ans et tu en es sortie sans Dieu, chapeau!
2022-10-29


Lawrence Beck The PoetBay support member heart!
Give it all some time. Your life has drastically changed, but probably not for the worse.
2022-10-29