There is a certain sense of loss(?),

But at the same time amazement,

To one day find yourself not

Feeling all of that pain that had been

So entrenched from the beginning,

And that had slowly chipped away at

Your sanity and overall well-being

Year after year without any breaks...

Not to mention the annihilation of

All hope anything else could ever

Come your way in any conceivable

Fashion because that is all you had

Ever known life was like.

Not that one would ever miss it at all,

But it is nonetheless in some measure

Very déboussolant just the same,  

To one day find yourself without it,

It feels like having entered a new

Dimension or perhaps a new planet,

And it sure takes some getting used to...

It is obviously not unpleasant at all,

It is just unusual and makes you feel

A little unsure about all of the happiness.

The landscape is unrecognizable, unknown,

And although you are awed, pleased by it,

There is a big part of you that is now gone.

And that feels a little unsettling somehow;

A most difficult thing to try to explain, really.