There's no way to explain it,

Not to yourself, not to others,

It's just something you can't

Stop yourself from doing,

Even though you know it's

Far from any good logical

Idea or any good to yourself,

Yet you still get overtaken...

Even though you know what

Will come from it, the seering

Pain it causes, the worried,

If not scandalized look in their

Eye when they witness what you

Manage to do, not to mention

The powerlessness it leaves them

To have to deal with because

Of you.  All of it you could do

Without in a heartbeat...

But it's been going on for so

Long, you don't think you'll ever

Be able to know anything else;

It's just part of you, it's just

How it's always been, so you

Retreat and hide away to

Spare them all the drama,

'Cause who needs this?

No one, that's who,

Including even yourself.