about E.E
He's changed now.. He talks to me! .. Everything's like the way it used to be!.. *Hrmf* .. Things are going to change back!.. But if I'm ever falling in love again, I promes!.. I won't tell any one!..



You chose to come back

First we sit there caring for eacother,
Just that the other one doesn't know.
We talk and talk.
Having such a great time,
Not knowing it will be the first and the last time.

- You brigth up my day

You said it just for fun.
Or maybe you meant it?
Or maybe not.

The next day would change my life.
Only I didn't know it.
You didn't know it.
No one knew it.

But, when I told you,
I should have shutted my mouth when I had the chance.
Right after I said it was you.
Cause I belive I said to much.
Couldn't you tell me you felt the same way?
It could have been us.

So, why did I ruen it all by saying I never wanted to?
When I belive something could have happend.
And I really did want to.
But, I can't erase the past.

It changed everything.
Everything that I loved about my life.
We never talked any more,
Cause you refused to.
You were letting go.
Couldn't you understand that it hurted so much?

I heard you never rouend any friendship over those things,
But I guess they all were wrong.
They telling me that,
Was the only reason why I chose to tell you.

And then my feelings started to grow stronger and stronger.
And I had to lie.
I told you were just a friend to me,
And that I never wanted us to be.
That I didn't care so much any more.
It was all a lie.
I loved you then.
Couldn't you just understand?
You were my everything.
My reason for living.
My reason for breathing.
I walk around wondering if I could ever have you.

It took me a half year to forget you.
Move and and look forward.
To get away my feelings for you.
But you never knew what I felt about you.

They were all talking to you about me,
And you were getting really sick of it.
I think you understood,
But I told you that none of what they said were true.
I called them all stupid.
But I was the stupid one.
The stupid one who were falling for you.

But now, I'm afraid that my feelings will come back.
Or that I'm only thinking it inside my mind.
I know you always will be the only one for me.
But I need to pretend.
Need to lie.
Just to keep you by my side.

But don't blame me for my choice.
Don't tell me it is wrong.
Cause I want you to stay in my life,
Now that you chose to come back.
I'm glad you did.
I missed you.
I loved you.
If only you knew how much I cared about you.




Poetry by kittipuusen
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Written on 2006-09-26 at 18:05

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Saga
I see your smile darling. I see your smile!!!
2006-09-27