feeling fat


Too Tight

Maybe she shouldn't
Have eaten what she did
She just wants to
Smash the mirrors
And she just want to
Break those
Smiles on tv

She curls up in bed
Frowning
So don't
deserve tears

They all tell her
She isn't fat
But she could eat less
And excercise a little more

How can she tell them
She can't go outside
Without a voice inside
Telling her she fails
In everything she tries

So instead she bites her lip
And bruises herself somemore
She just wants to go back
When she was a little too thin
When she wasn't embarrased
To wear that top
Or she could buy those trousers

But now all she knows is that
Those jeans are too tight now
And those tops make her feel
All too blue inside

And when her mother
Calls her plump
It starts to get to her
And when she eats at night
Crying, it makes her feel
Strangely hollow inside

The sight of food
Makes her feel sick inside
So she stops eating
But still she doesn't change

And he still still cuddles her the same
But when she looks in his eyes
His eyes dont see her
But her soul inside
Or does he?
How can he ignore her pain
How can he ignore her tear
stains inside

Why do people still continue
To batter her
To see when she can break
To see how far she can go

But she
Only
Knows how far

And every night
It gets a little closer.




Poetry by jacy
Read 499 times
Written on 2005-10-23 at 23:32

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