those months in silence, i dissapeared


Broken Ragdoll

I have no music
And this don't sit so well on me
When everything clouds
And I have no blood to let
I haven't written in months
And my head could get cancer
From all the thick smoke inside
Stopping me from seeing clearly

I'm tired
And there's nothing on tv
I've found to be on the brink
On the brink of sanity
And insanity
But it doesn't seem so strange
To lay down some self control
For when all these lies
Have been letted
And people have found humour
Within the self pity
I have expressed
I find
I'm smaller than I think

Always looking for the answer
Will I find it in heaven
Will I find it if I look
Do I actually want these asked
And then to be answered
Sometime in return.

And it is feeling like that time
Where everything in love goes wrong
One leaves or I do
But I find no will to leave on my part
But yet he jumps to the chance
Without thinking
To be with him

When will I learn
When will I learn

To find love
Is not in the arms of a man
A womans heart
Is only just as fickle
When this is to be found
That you truely find
That to start again is best
Change all that you are
Change all that you know
Change all that you believe
Then start again.

In a different place
In a different time
With a different life

I surrounded ownership
Volunterily to a man
When I shouldn't have done
I confessed all my lies
Because he was so good to me
But now I see
They're all just the same

And i know
That i'll forget
And love him again
And i know
That i'll carry on
But break inside
And never let him know




Poetry by jacy
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Written on 2005-10-24 at 00:52

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Teala
Wow--what a powerful write--Great job!
2005-10-26