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NOTE: 2021 10 26 21H28 EST The Only Eagerness Left -
The Only Eagerness Left
To be honest, I don't know anymore.
My reasons to carry on keep diminishing
From view, and I try to hold on to them,
But the only thing that gives me feelings
Of a hopeful nature is that there'll be an end.
The only one capable of growing, it seems.
The rest, there's just nothing left for me.
It all feels irrational like beating a dead horse.
It all feels like a monumental waste of time
Trying to reconnect to any sort of dreams.
Add to it a body in decline way too early, making
Every simple thing additional mountains to climb.
The main theme of this is utter exhaustion
It takes too immense amounts of energy
To constantly try hard and fail hard at each turn.
There does come a point when enough's enough.
So, I can't wait to die
Is the cold of it.
I won't make it happen,
That's for sure, I can't.
But I eagerly wait for it.
Diary by F.i.in.e Moods
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Written on 2021-10-27 at 03:36
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