A raw, confessional reflection on fear, hidden evil, and moral struggle, as the speaker seeks freedom from corruption, evil spirits, and inner darkness while striving to embody goodness and justice.
You know them, but have I not told You that I will write them in text to confess before mankind, which I have been part of corrupting—part of corrupting the earth, part of betraying my duty as a soldier who dropped out to be a criminal, or as a soldier who dropped out to become a digital warrior to stand for people in poverty, oppression, injustice, fear, corruption by government, and manipulation by government?
Have I not been a conspiracy theorist who stood against governments to free people from government control, from fear of disobeying governments? Surely I have corrupted my society with my words, but have I not wanted to reveal to the world what was happening in Palestine during its conflict with Israelis?
Have I not sided with Palestinians and seen Israelis as my opposite, as not part of my people? Have I not seen Israel as not part of me or my world for the sake of my own Palestinian tribe, roots, and society, which are part of me—from my family to those who are my neighbors?
Yet have You not seen me when I advocated against wars and killings? Have You seen me or heard me advocate the death of Israelis? Surely You have seen my heart when I advocated fighting Israeli soldiers, or certain soldiers in the world in general, but have You seen my heart advocate the death of any society or mankind in general?
Surely You have seen the evil inside me that wants me to be a fighter against mankind and to fight mankind with my fists. But surely You have seen me witness innocent people, witness people who stand for justice such as police, and You have seen the whispers inside me lose their grasp on me when I admitted that if I become evil and dominate mankind with my evil, surely I will take innocent people and those who stand with justice, such as police and law enforcers, as enemies—and You know I do not want to take them as enemies.
Surely You see why I do not want to become an evildoer, because the world has good people. Surely, will I not do good for those who are good? Will I not stand with good people and innocent people? Will I not believe that goodness exists, and that goodness does not need a human host, animal host, insect host, nature host, or existential host to exist?
Surely Your light, Your goodness, Lord, is enough to say that it is what embodies us, because we all come from Your will, my Lord, and Your will is good.
Have I also not told You that my greatest fear today is to become Your enemy, as the whispers in my head tell me that I may be the greatest villain of this world, that I may be the Antichrist of this world? Have I not been told by certain individuals that I am a villain? Have I not been seen by others as if I am a villain?
Surely You know who or what I am, Lord. Have You not seen me see a dark figure roaming over the earth in my mind, as it roams over me?
Surely, Lord, do You not see that I do not want to be part of evil, but that I want to breathe goodness and make it my spirit?
Lord, free me from evil spirits, please. Make me whole, my Lord, and make me free from evil spirits. The evil spirit has made my body—or my spirit—rotten. And I have told my relative, my cousin, that I feel my body is rotten. I felt my spirit was rotten, Lord.
Surely, will You not cleanse my spirit, Lord?
I believe You can.
Poetry by Hurt
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Written on 2026-01-05 at 21:43
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Cleansing the Spirit
Have I not mentioned my greatest fears, my Lord?You know them, but have I not told You that I will write them in text to confess before mankind, which I have been part of corrupting—part of corrupting the earth, part of betraying my duty as a soldier who dropped out to be a criminal, or as a soldier who dropped out to become a digital warrior to stand for people in poverty, oppression, injustice, fear, corruption by government, and manipulation by government?
Have I not been a conspiracy theorist who stood against governments to free people from government control, from fear of disobeying governments? Surely I have corrupted my society with my words, but have I not wanted to reveal to the world what was happening in Palestine during its conflict with Israelis?
Have I not sided with Palestinians and seen Israelis as my opposite, as not part of my people? Have I not seen Israel as not part of me or my world for the sake of my own Palestinian tribe, roots, and society, which are part of me—from my family to those who are my neighbors?
Yet have You not seen me when I advocated against wars and killings? Have You seen me or heard me advocate the death of Israelis? Surely You have seen my heart when I advocated fighting Israeli soldiers, or certain soldiers in the world in general, but have You seen my heart advocate the death of any society or mankind in general?
Surely You have seen the evil inside me that wants me to be a fighter against mankind and to fight mankind with my fists. But surely You have seen me witness innocent people, witness people who stand for justice such as police, and You have seen the whispers inside me lose their grasp on me when I admitted that if I become evil and dominate mankind with my evil, surely I will take innocent people and those who stand with justice, such as police and law enforcers, as enemies—and You know I do not want to take them as enemies.
Surely You see why I do not want to become an evildoer, because the world has good people. Surely, will I not do good for those who are good? Will I not stand with good people and innocent people? Will I not believe that goodness exists, and that goodness does not need a human host, animal host, insect host, nature host, or existential host to exist?
Surely Your light, Your goodness, Lord, is enough to say that it is what embodies us, because we all come from Your will, my Lord, and Your will is good.
Have I also not told You that my greatest fear today is to become Your enemy, as the whispers in my head tell me that I may be the greatest villain of this world, that I may be the Antichrist of this world? Have I not been told by certain individuals that I am a villain? Have I not been seen by others as if I am a villain?
Surely You know who or what I am, Lord. Have You not seen me see a dark figure roaming over the earth in my mind, as it roams over me?
Surely, Lord, do You not see that I do not want to be part of evil, but that I want to breathe goodness and make it my spirit?
Lord, free me from evil spirits, please. Make me whole, my Lord, and make me free from evil spirits. The evil spirit has made my body—or my spirit—rotten. And I have told my relative, my cousin, that I feel my body is rotten. I felt my spirit was rotten, Lord.
Surely, will You not cleanse my spirit, Lord?
I believe You can.
Poetry by Hurt
Read 24 times
Written on 2026-01-05 at 21:43
Tags Fear Spirituality Morality
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