I realize you may be feeling

Exasperated at this point,

It's really not what I mean

For you to be experiencing.

It's just that I'm still to this

Day unclear as to what I

Can possibly do to make it

Better for myself in any way.

I was destroyed in childhood

And my adulthood may have

Improved in that I was able to

Get away from all the harm,

But it had devastating effects

On my mind and as a result

It turned on me and made

Everything difficult to live.

I finally was able to find

Myself a clearing through it

After many years, but then it

Was body's turn to fall apart,

Where constant pain of a

Different kind became

A regular part of daily life

Where no cure is possible.

So I'm sorry if you feel

Exasperated with the

Ongoing difficulties I'm

Still up against to this day.

Not my intention to bring

Any sort of negativity or

Hardship your way, but I

Hope you can understand

I've been trying so hard,

And I'm now so exhausted.

It's certainly not how I'd

Hoped my life would go.

I tried, I really did.