about Mom .. ¨
Blææ .. I hate her!!..


don't ever come back you whore

I wanted it for so long.
I wanted my parents to split up.
Mean, isn't it?
I know it so very well.
But it had gone away a while ago,
But then the news "finally" broke trough.
I had knewd it for a while.
Cause I could see it in mom's eyes.
But I never though it would happend.

"I'm moving out" she said.
I allready knew it.
Cause Dad had allready told me.
He had cried in front of me.
I never though I would live long enough to see that,
But I did.
It broke my heart to see him fall apart.
Even more when she said:
"I'm moving in to him" ..

He left the room and got some paper.
I could hear him cry in the bathroom.
Even though he tried to stay strong.

She lifted up the dog,
took he's things,
Said goodbye,
And walked out the door.

I wanted to never see her any more.

I didn't talk to her in some days.
But then she invited me to dinner.
I had to except.
Even I didn't want to.
What else were I supposed to do?
Say no and just let go?
No. I couldn't.
Not then.
But I could now.

It's not even a year ago since she moved out.
And I bet no one exept me.
I'm doing fine!

She thinks that it is because of her boyfriend I chose to live with dad.
Why doesn't it hit her mind that it might be her?
She thinks she is so perfect,
But she's really not.
I don't understand why she thinks I love her more than dad.
Cause it really does seems like it.
But why can't she understand?
Why can't any one understand?

I try to tell them that I really do don't like my mom,
But they don't belive me.
Even though I tell them about everything.
They just say that I have a hidden, cold side within me.
And I know.
But what I'm telling is true.
why can't my friends belive me?

I felt bad the day mom moved out.
I guess I felt gilt.
I wanted her to die in the past,
I wanted her to move out.
And suddenly she moved.
Moved to another guy.
Why did she?
Why couldn't she just live with someone else first?
Just to ease the pain on poor Dad.
You never think about him, do you?

Poor guy.
He try to play strong.
He visit you and your new boyfriend.
Drink a coop of coffie.
I can see the way he look at you.
It's the same old look I saw when you to were happy.
You were the only one who saw any foults, Mom.
I don't understand what went wrong.

You are depressed, just deal with it.
To break up with the guy you lived with for 17 years is not the answer.
It's just givving up.
I though you were "strong".
I could see it in your eyes from a long distanse call,
I could hear it in your voice when we spoke,
That things were wrong.
But I don't understand that before now.
Cause now your so called happy.
I don't think you really am.
I'm sorry.
but I don't think you really am.
But don't come back again.
We don't want you her.
Dad won't take you back.
I won't let him.
Then I'm moving out.




Poetry by kittipuusen
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Written on 2006-09-02 at 01:11

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gills
painful as it seems you'll be ok. You still have your dad :) keep writting because you are a really refreshing read
2006-10-23


Saga
Powerful and yet, so painful!!
2006-09-02


keith nunes
that's a powerful poem. what difficult emotions to deal with but you sound like you know yourself well enough to get through all this. well done!
2006-09-02


Michael G
i am very sorry for you.. i have no idea what it is like and it must be hard. great expression of your feelings. Feel better!
2006-09-02


Daybreaker
Heartbreaking words.

But remember to think yourself into your mothers position as well. Maybe you do not know the whole truth.

It's easy sometimes to judge, we are all too harsh against one another.

Talk with your mother, and try to picture it from her view.

Life's too short too hate people.

Work it out.

/Daybreaker
2006-09-02


Judy T Lloyd
My word, you know I think you pretty much nailed it. It was very expressive of how you feel. I believe were I in your position I would feel the same.
2006-09-02