F.i.in.e Moods

- à toutes les fois...

tout l'temps peur

d'laisser mes mots

always afraid

of leaving my words 

tellement peur

de cette exposition

so afraid

of this exposure

qu'avec ça vient

l'besoin de disparaître

that with it comes

the need to disappear

c'est tellement fort

j'n'peux m'en empêcher

it's so strong

I'm unable to help it

j'dois disparaître

alors, c'est c'que j'fais

I must disappear

so, that's what I do

- for NSW, R, J, LB, KW, UM, UD, MP,  J... thank you *hugs* xx

Thinking on it all,

It's been quite the journey.

One I wouldn't have managed

To get through on my own.

If it hadn't been for you, my life

Would've been lost over many times.

You stuck by me even though

It took years for me to get well.

It was the horrors of my life

That kept on; to annihilate me.

So I detailed it all, as best

As words could describe it.

I tried to let it all out of me,

So I'd no longer be alone with it.

So desperate to fix it all,

To stop hurting from it.

And keeping it to myself

Was becoming too overbearing.

I know it was often heavy,

Disturbing, and very dark.

But you stuck around so long anyway, making

Me believe I perhaps may be worth something.

You likely don't know it, but thank you,

You helped me save me from broken me.

I'm still here,

And I'm happy.