F.i.in.e Moods

- joining in usually causes discomfort, loss for words, shock, or pity... none of which I care to bring on... 

Mingling with people

Puts me in a bad spot.

They talk of their lives,

Families, memories.

And I really can't reply

With very much of mine.

My life, family, memories are

Mainly uncomfortable to hear.

So I always need to gauge

Very carefully what I say.

I can't spontaneously share what

Comes to mind on what they say.

So I listen and I smile with them,

But I'll never be able to join in.

I know what happens when I do,

And I don't care to deal with that.

They get to feel discomfort,

But imagine mine at theirs.

It's just my life, family, and

Memories; my experiences.

If I can't talk about what I've lived,

What am I meant to do, make it up?

Fat chance that I'd ever be able to

Do that.  Instead, I just keep quiet.