F.i.in.e Moods

Eh cibole ! C'est l'cas de

l'dire, on gèlent comme

des p'tits cretons à matin !

J't'en train d'virer

en popsicle sur place !

Comme Gilles Vigneault

chantait dans sa chanson :

« Mon pays c'est l'hiver ».

Oui, monsieur !  C'est plein

dans l'mille c'qu'i' disait-là.

Souvent à partir d'octobre

jusqu'à la fin d'avril qu'on

peut voir la neige à l'entour.

Mais l'pire sont les jours

venteux de -25 Celsius,

Pas trop une rareté, ça.

Alors, c'est l'cas de l'dire,

on gèlent comme des p'tits

cretons à matin !

Eh cibole !

Comparing you and my walls,

I'd say it's similar in
That neither say anything...
But you, you expect me
To catch what you mean.

- was a 'toasty' -17 C / 1 F today... but the pic is the view from my bedroom window the other morning after a night of snowfall... I'm in a semi-basement apartment, windows are at ground level...

"Bon, I have to go shovel the windows."

Bet you don't hear that one often. (wink)

- thoughts about the LGBTQIA++++ 'movement'... recent conversations with a friend got me thinking... if my thoughts are misguided, please let me know how they are so I can adjust myself....

what I mean by 'personality issues' : personal foibles or disorders...

discrimination (n.) : the practice of unfairly treating a person or group differently from other people or groups of people.

But the types of discriminations it's about have dire consequences which severely impede a person's ability to function in our society.  Being denied access to employment, housing, community opportunities or support, and so many other things we take for granted 'cause they've never been denied to us in such a society-sanctioned way... it's unconscionable, in my view... so my thoughts revolve around all those aspects... and I'm a bit wondering, at the same time...

I'm most likely uninformed,
'Cause these are realities
I wouldn't know firsthand,
But from what I understand,
Here's my outsider's view on it:

LGT are THE groups who have
Suffered the most horrendous
Of discriminations in history.
As for B, well, not sure how exactly,
I'd need an explanation on that one...

As for every other letter that've
Been piling on over recent years,
Well, those come across to me
As personality issues which are
So very far from relating to

Any of what LGT is about.
I don't understand why the
Movement is going along with
All of these additions that
Bear no relevance to their cause.

Their cause is about discrimination,
Obtaining basic rights as citizens,
Obtaining safety for their lives,
And enjoying a dignity being denied
For reasons impossible to justify.

Their cause isn't about sex or individual
Preferences or biological mismatches.
It's about DISCRIMINATION
Brought on by those reasons, which,
Really, are no one's business!

But personality issues wanting to be
Viewed as the same the movement is about
Is truly the best way to confound the
Initial point of why the movement exists.
Really not doing themselves any favors, I think.

- physio is so-so... meds not causing problems but no effects yet on pain relief... so, constant pain and periods of debilitation are pretty much it still... emotionally, well, it's a mix of a lot as life continues to not be so simple... beyond exhausted, feel drained...

Can't make up my mind

As to which is the worst :

Emotional pain

Or

Physical pain.

They feel on equal footing,

But so very differently anyway.

One thing that is identical, though,

Is the amount of energy needed.

It'll make you feel dead.

It'll make you feel it's not a life.

That much I can clearly

Make my mind up on.

They're so full of themselves, I think,

Maybe they think they're better than me.

The funny part about that is

They don't even know me.

Only what they've built together

From surface bits and pieces,

Interpretations,

Speculations.

Yet they're sure of their impressions

And feel justified in being rude to me.

I'll never understand that side of us, how

It takes so little to be unkind to each other.

He calmly added : 

"For sure, his disabilities

Have my every sympathy.

However, they don't negate

The fact that an asshole is

Still nonetheless an asshole -

It's not un-PC to say

The truth of the matter,

Wheelchair or not."

The look on their faces...

- que ceux qui l'entourent... 

je dois avouer,

si les choses

continuent comme

ça, je vais développer

un complexe, là...

The Walls Have More to Say Lately...

- than those who are around...

I must admit,

if things

carry on this

way, I'll develop

a complex, là...

- my stomach is always making me burp... but I mean burp :/  I'm careful to not burp around people, but sometimes, they just come out... one of those moments... 

This happened many years ago

And the memory is as vivid.

It's the day my twelve-year old's

Friend met me for the first time.

I was alone at home,

The kids out to friends',

So I put on Death Metal

On the sound system,

Also took a shower;

You know, taking time

For me doing my own

Things in a kid-free time.

On that day, it happened

While I hadn't realized

My son and his friend were

Standing on the kitchen doormat.

I came out of the shower, towel on head,

Wearing a long-enough (thankfully!) black

Tank top with a skull print on the front,

And loudly buuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrped

On my way to my bedroom.

The music had enough volume,

But my burp was heard anyway.

This is the point, my son says,

That his friend turned to him,

And asked, "Is that your mom?"

With an air on his face that tried

To not show surprise...

My son has teased me about this -

He still says it was the funniest thing.

I keep thinking what a first impression!

Embarrassing doesn't depict it justly.

* on this day, a few things were unusual :  death metal on the sound system 'cause the kids were out at friends' for sleepovers and I had some alone time, a rare occasion; wearing a skull-print tank top I never wear which I'd quickly grabbed for my shower exit to go get dressed; and burping with people around... I can only imagine what the kid was thinking of this scene... :)

For a 'professional'

I'd say you're limited

In your views,

In your experience.

I say this 'cause I saw

Your notes of what you

Understood of what I shared

With you about my life.

My saying that I needed

To get away from what

I was doing for getting money

Isn't what you interpreted.

You jumped to the

Stereotypical conclusion

Even though I never said

Anything of the sort to you.

So now there are official

Notes in a file reporting

That I prostituted myself when

Never did that ever happen.

How do you suppose that

Makes me feel, you think?

It's a load of nonsense,

There's no way in reality.

So fed up of you 'professionals'

Creating a narrative that bears

No resemblance to my circumstances...

Get with it is all I feel like screaming.